dontwannathinkaboutyou

NORA INVADES!

2004-09-07T13:54:00.000+08:00

HEYHEYHEY ALLLL!
NORS COMPOOTA IS MAJOR SCREWED UP.
SO PLEASE.
DONT MIND HER FOR NOT BLOGGING.
HAHAS.
SHE WANTS TOO BUT SHE CANT!
SO YEAH!
SHE WISHES ALL HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
HAHAS.
NO SHE DOESNT.
IM MAD.
OHKAYE GOING OFF NOW.
BYEEEEEEE!

NOR LOVES ALL HER STINKY FRIENDS!
-INVASION DONE!(:

argh~! i cant post!! i can only write titLe.how interstin..stupid fucked up com!! argh~!

2004-09-07T13:45:00.001+08:00

jhvdjb

2004-09-07T13:45:00.000+08:00

[you]

2004-08-22T18:12:00.000+08:00

there r many many things dat i wish i could do.things i could do fer you.but it make any difference wld it? ur happy now,with someone else.all i can do is see from far.get any cLoser n I"LL get hurt.mayb things would b different IF i answered ur question differentLy.its all too Late now.yes? there's nothing i can do.u wouldnt know how i feeL.doubt u'd even care.my heart aches everytime i see wit someone eLse.hearin stuff bout u n d other u just makes it worst.seein u guys together...? dun even ask man. but oh welLs...wad can i do? ur Life ur ruLes...just Like in usher's song...burn..
// u know dat its best for urseLf but u hate the thought of her being wit someone else but u know dat its over.its all been through.let it burn...let it burn... gotta let it burn....//

*feeLings dun Last forever..yes? ppl often say dat.but me feeLings fer you Last forever.. wHy? someone pLease teLl ME?*

yes noraa...im tokin bout you know who. it sucks man. darn it. bLoody helL.

world sucks

2004-08-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

wad d hel were u thinkin? why are u always out o destroy n break up da famiLy?wad the helL did i do to desreve a brother like u?do u think she deserve this? ya!! it wont make a difference cuase u WONT change.its been like freakin hell two years darn it. wake up can? u are always causin the fights between us family memebers u know? the only reason abg in aint comin home is because he doesnt wanna see ur bLoody face.n d only reason why abg shah doesnt wanna come to our house is he doesnt wanna loose his temeper at U!! dun u get it? everyone gotsta a sacrifice for u is it? everyone has to do things ur was is it? it wasnt like as thought it was mom hu owe him money ryte? its u ryte? do think mom deserve wad she got? she always has to go through SHIT just for u!!! n all u do in return is ...... create more trouble! wads dis? wad d heLL do u think ur doin? please la... change can? change fer d better la. make life more meaningfuL can? stop all ur nonsense shits la.ok. ur really TOO MUCH u know. i cant take no Longer. u suck man. god knows wad i did to haf a brother like U!! all i want is to haf my family back.just like how it used to b.yes i know..in life there bound to be ups n downs.but stiLL??? how long more? how long more do u want us to SUFFER from UR mistakes.please.think bout it.so wat if im in no position to say all i wanna say? do U ever listen wen i talk nicely? do u ever atleast try to? no.why? just because im freakin heLL younger than u..wat the HELL la ok..u know? everyday i get home..all tired n shit.. seeing ur face..just makes it WORSE.much much MUCH worse.mayb ur ryte.u should just go.go away n never come back.honestLY.so much for "air dicincang tiada putus" meaning fights between sibLings dun last. -btw..u WILL NEVER CHANGE!!!-

phew..wad a relief. can die can... anyhoos...the whole world sucks can?just as i thought i cld live one day without gettin all frustrated n worked up.but no....stop ignorin me.stop avoidin me.if u dun wanna talk just say.i'll cut all contact.stop givin me all this freakin hell..fae smiles n everything.cause i know.n dat just makes me feeL worse.honestly.stop hinting things.sayin stuff infront of me just like as though it wont hurt me.just stop it.seriousLy.why r there peeps like u ppl in ths worLd.get lost.go away.reaLLy.

sorry nor's gone mad.everythin is bad.argh..just as i thought i was gettin better.n some nonsense shit just has to happen.realLy.anyhoos...im stuck between two.how? i know d answer's obvious.im so totally over you.os should i say only when ur not around.but i haf to get over u.notlike as if u'd know how i feel.yes? but oh wells...looks like i haf no probLem now yes? case closed. oh n as for u nirzham shah? fuck off n die!

ps: sorry all.i tried my best not to b vulgar in this entry .but ya.oops!

NORAA: u will MOVE on.
DUDE: i WILL NOT let history repeat itseLF.i thought i stopped dat from happenin.looks like i faiLED.its like history in the makin.
jo:thanks for all those times u stood by me.listenin to my nonsense shits n alL.yes? Love u ALWays!!!
sam fern: no worries girL.i made it through.n im sure u wiLL too!!! ok.d best thing to do now is. b there for ur sista yes?
to rest of the peeps: have fun whiLe u can ya'll!!!

TO SECONDARY FOUR/FIVE:::

LUCKS TO THE REMAININ PAPERS YA"LL!!! NOR LOVES U GUYS TONNES!!! haahha!!! SEE YA!!!

"u know its best for urself but u hate d thought of *** being wit someone ELSE but u know that its over.it's all been through..let it burn.let it burn.gotta let it burn"
it hurts me to see u wit someone eLse.but wad can i do?u love ***.and i cant change dat.wen i see u..it just makes me feeL worse.oh welLs..life tough w/o u in it.but i guess i gotsta go thru it.yes?thanks for being there.times we talked.times we had together i'll never forget.ur presense that made eveything perfect i'll visualise in my mind always.the things u say to me.memories or our frenship i'll never forget.

angry

2004-08-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

heys all..heys all..hahas!! yupps..hmmm..anyways...this is entry is fer someone who doesnt bother n care bout other ppl's feelings.yes?yes.anyhoos...u suck.freakin-sensored-!
how could u do thiss to em!??? dont u have any feelings at all?? u act like as though the woprld revolves around u n dont care bout others.at aLL!!! u can actually tell her stuff dat u know will hurt her truck loads.n u still go on wit it. n u act like as though nothing wrong is happenin?wtf is ur freakin problem???!!! and u say u hav moved ion n NEVER play wit ppl's feelngs..well guess waD? u just did...n u are hurtng em so badly...till there's no word to describe it.and oh.im not filinu up wit watever's goin on in MY life!!?? wen was da last time U did dat? did u even tell me wats new? no ryte? den? just fuck off la bitch!! go away..i seriously dont think i should wastes my time on ppl like u... just like ur nick name...ur NOT human.ur a freakin insect...aSS hole.. i dont care if u dun ever talk to me after this entry.cause fuck u bitch!!! i dont need u..u might think im harsh.insensitive n everythin...but do i care? NO!!! go away!

jo: yupps..had truck loads of fun.yes? haahs!!!shall do it again someohter time yes?
sam+: ya!!! its dat jacket...damn nice ryte? hahs!! yupps!!
noraa: heys cu..no ur not stupid.u just happen to fall for the wrond person.i certainly didnt think she wld do sometrhing like dat.really...wells..da best thing to do now is move on..yes? not easy...i know..ut must try keas..n stop doin watever dat ur doin..i know its tough loosin someone u love but still...i had to forget n still tryin..i believe u can do da same thing too..ok...olve ya loads!! anything ui can always come talk to me...hey..look at the bright side..if u loose someone..atleast u know u still haf memories???yes?

-fun day-

2004-08-16T20:50:00.000+08:00

gosh....the maLay paper was mad hard ya'll.i alomost died..ciks!!how cld u set da paper so hard.argh.but anyhoos..its over now yes.hehe.as long as i know i tried my best im cool.hahas.yupps...hmmm.....todays gotsta b one of my fun days.hahas! yupps...atyed in school a lil just now after paper.den off ta novena.i tell you..i gotsta go shoopin man.saw this realLy nice brown jacket from d adidas thingy..and its one 55 bucks!!! -screams- i gotsta get it.hhahas.yupps...jo bought me a bottLe...thank jo.it made me feel good.hahas.thanks ya..den wen ta united square ta meet laura..get me stuffys n off ta jo's house.hahahas.yupps.studied fer like..err...oops! i forgot how long.den cycled ta east coast.da breeze was great ya'll.yupps.played a il bbaLL n later..home..hahas!! yupps...wad an interesting day i had todae.yupps.hmmm....but i gotsta go study now.hahas.SS paper tmr.yupps...see ya'll
-peace-

noraa: did ya get ur pants back?
dudeie:hey..gLAd we talked things out.yupps.just let it by.let it by... ;P

study day!

2004-08-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

hmmmm....hey ya'll im tired n bored.darn it!! know wad? freakin hel prelims onmondaey la!! shits! n first paper is mother toungue.how fun.anyhoos..i haf nothng to say,.haah!! yupps..n i haf to get back to studyin.yupps! bye all.. -peace-

fuck u

2004-08-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

-sigh- haiya..why? nevetr thought u'd be gone.without even sayin goodbye.dint see this coming.why?i helped.w/o askin anyhing in return.but wells..mayb i should den MAYB things would b different.but oh wells..FUCK It.FUCK u !!! freakin asshole!!! i hate u!!!! argh...just d same!!!! i wnader why?!! argh..this is so fuckin annoying..shit faces!! fuck..fuckfuckfuckfckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfu!!!! FUCK U!!!

art.

2004-08-10T13:42:00.000+08:00

aaaAAAAaaaaHHHHhhhhHhHHHH!!!!! -screams-
somebody gotsta heLp me...i have no freakin ideaof wad ta do fer ART.argh.
oLd fashioned,endure,auspicious,superflouos,florid,heritage.
which should i choose??? i dunno..darn it...
n can it get any worse...finaL colour fer paper cut..doesnt go at all..like majorly different colour.aaahhhh...wad m i to do...seeessh...arts takin so much of my time man..so irritating.
darn it..oh welLs..gotta start crackin ma brain now.
but oh weLLs...again *[you]* are alwasy on my mind..

when im feelin blue
i just have to think of you
you put a smile on my face
makin it possible to go thru any phase
but was if it's *[you]*
the reason why im bLue
please tell me wad i gotta know
it hurts me to see u go..
watchin u slip thru my fingers
ur present still lingers
there was once everythin seem so real
out of reace but not too far to feel
BUT little did i know...
this was all yet a dream...

[miss u]

[you]

2004-08-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

this is to *[you]*.yupps.im shattered.crushed.torned.everything.all thanks to you.i was ok just now.but all it took was a "phone call".n there..im all moody-fied now.-sighs-
im twisted cause one side of me is tellin me a need ta move on.the other side i wanna break down n cry.u know its best for urself but u hate the thought of her being wit someone else but u know thats its over..

btw..just thought ppl might wana know.[115 tears i've made u cry]

to all u peeps out there hu knows wad im tokin bout:::im sorry if my blog's really really depressin...but i've got no other ways to express it.so ya.im sorry.if i dun let it go,n keep it all in side.sonner or later i'll break down n dats even worse.n yes..now is not da time to tink bout this stuffys but u know..wen somethings distractin u..everything u do...n i mean everythin u do..will b bout ur distraction... ='(

cLutz

2004-08-08T17:43:00.000+08:00

omg..im sucha CLUTZ!!! heLP me!!! this mornin i hit my toes againsnt the stupid side table outside of my room..alomost hittin down the vase.den i wenta buy BREAKFAST...i tripped and almost landed fLat on my face can?? how embarassin.luckiLy no one was Looking.hahas.yupps.den i did my laundry n bumped my head on the cupboard.[yes mabel.its the second time.] -ouch- im sucha clutz.n whiLe doin art just now i CUT myself..it wasnt on purpose ya'll .. ACCIDENT. really. speakin of which...i haf ta get back to art now.see ya!! hehehes...Love...

everythin::wwhere are u?? i need ta talk to ya!!! its darn it urgent.hahas! miss u loads too!!!

beauty

2004-08-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

i had tuition last night.i was given a task.i was suppose to wirte down wad beauty is to me..
to me beauty is u.be it looks..character.or whatsoever.it really affected me last night.cause d whole day all i talked bout.thought bout..was you.why?is there really beauty in you?this i will think bout always.would someone..anyone out there...tell me wad beauty is??

borinng

2004-08-07T20:54:00.000+08:00

-sighs- today is sucha a lazy daaee...i've been like slaCkin da whole dae todae.aint much done.except fer me art dat is.its horribLe.i dun like it..EewWw.. hahas. im bored.darn it. i gots to go out man.need ta go shoppin!!!aargh...how? i cant go..oh wells..nehmind.i'll persevere..yupps..okok.as u guys can tell nor's bored n tireed and lazy..eeeEEekkKkKKSssSS....
i shall get goin now.im feeLin A lil SIck.eveytme I EAt..i feEl Like PukIng..[not as in dat pukin guys.as in "sick" pukin.i dun do dat stuff no more.]WHY? not AS if i ate much...hmm....i dunno wats wrng wit me..-screams-

[you]

2004-08-06T22:40:00.000+08:00

[ dOnt WaSte Ur tIme on ME u're aLreaDy Da VoiCE inside My head]
-ur EvErytHIn To Me.weN i cLose my eyEs ITs u I sEe-
::Im FaLlin Head OVER hEELs im FalLin Inlove WIt u im FalLin::
`here In My Heart theRe's A picTUre Of us.Together forvever ANd UnbRokEn`
_i never MeANt TO FALl In LoVE WIt U.N bAbY THEre's A WoRd FOr WHaT U PUt Me THrOUgH..It IsnT LOve Its ROBbeRY.IM SLEePing WIT THe GhOsT Of U N ME_
(WIShin ON a FALlin star.WonderIn WHere U are.DO u EVER CroSs ur MinD IN Da waRM sUn shine.she's fROm CIty Of aNGELs)
#i GOt Ths FEeLIn ur Not GONna Stay.Its BURninG WIthin mE.THE FeaR OF looSIng,Of SLiPpIn Away#
^Im tWiSteD COz ONe side Of is TELLin mE n NEED tO MoVE ON.THe OTHER SIDE jUST waNna BREak Down nn CRY.DEep DOWN u KNOW its best FOR urSElf but U HATe dA ThoUGht oF her BEIng WIt soMEoNE ELSE^
\dO U knOw dAt EVErytIMe Ur NeAR,EVERYbOdy SEeMs sO fAR aWAY\
"iM SO cONfUsed.dONt knoW WaT to DO"
theSE WOunds DOnt seeM TO heal.THIS Pain iS Much TOo REal.THEre's JuST too moUCH that TIME cAnnOt ErAse.
*How COMe?WE dun evEN TALK no morE?n U dun Even CAll no more?. I dun fEeL dA SAme Love WEN wE hUG NO MoRE*
+dONt WaNna ThInk BOut u.DONt WaNna TALK tIs ONe oUT+
---ALl I CAn DO iS See PHOto GRapHs oF u N Stop MYSELf
FrOM CRYIN.I SHLD LEARN tO LIVE My Life WithOUT Ur LOVE,Got SO manY MEmorIEs BUt Its nOt ENUFf---
=SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDIN=

norAA::itS all Ur fault.now Im so HOOKED To stars!! but they're BEAUTY!!

someone

2004-08-04T21:03:00.000+08:00

there was once in ur life i was someone,till u found someone new
never did i think i'd be used by you
used by you to get closer to her
i cant take this shit any further
now i can see that we're drifting apart
it's hittin me hard like an incoming dart
you've found a new friend,you left me aside
little do you know,the hurt has yet to subside...

today is sucha sucky day.but it got better.but this aint da point.
i didnt think u were one of those.who'd leave their friends alone.i gues she's right.you aint worth my tears.everyone's talkin.sayin u aint worth it.i wanted to proof them wrong.to show dem ur not hu dey think u are.and so i did u a favour.all i wanted in return was just a simple "thanks".but u just went on.thinkin everything was aiight.i tries my best by doin my part.like people say...it two hands to clap.yes? i did my part.its ur turn now.u aint apprieciatin wad i've done for you so why go on.i guess their ryte eh? u aint worth it.
watever it is.i'll be here for you.ur shoulder to cry on.im just a phone call away.if u forget me.[wait..u already did] i'll go on.like how you led yours n left me behind...

*how come we dont even talk no more?n you dont even call no more.i dun feel the same love wen we hug no more????*
-eminem-

2004-08-01T20:05:00.000+08:00

i feel so shitty inside.eeEEEKKkkkssss!!!! darn it. oh wells....

i wonder how IT'D be without Me...
wat am i suppose to do???

quiet u!!!

2004-07-29T21:18:00.000+08:00

donn!!! where were u!!!???
todae was aiight!..had like two free periods la...hahas.no malay n accounts n english.muahahaha...
mitch invades:im very confused.try or dun try.wat if someone gets hurt???wat if dat someone is ME?but den again..it'll will b even worse if it was e both of em.or either of em.dun wanna see nobody gettin hurt.is there another way out??-sighs- =\ is datin in secret a posible way out??
went to mitchy's house todae after wit lydia.poor dude of mind is sick..poor thing.but she doesnt look see to me at all!!hahas.pass her her silly art board.so freakin huge!!Like almost her size.hahas.-argh- but oh wells..anything fer me lil dude.hehes.so much for studyin..more ike slackin'.till like six?? yupps.den went to kyna's house.went ta take kinky...hahas.so cute!! i miss him so much.he got so fat!!!hahas.btw..kyna was wearin pink underwear.!!! lol!!! rytes.at dat time it was like seven la.suppose to b home at six can?took cab.freakin hell.bloody cab fare eleven buckS!!! day light robbery man.but ma dude paid for it so its ok.hahas.pay u back somede dude!!
mitch invades again:do u know i had to change my bedsheet b4 they came.n now must change
again.dunno wad dey were doin on the bed man.
we werent doin anything ok!! stop it arh..enuff..or i'll irritate u like no ones business.hahas.over rall today's a fun dae la.ryte guys?? hhas.so much laughter..n joy.its been a pretty long time eversince i had so much fun!!!
hahas...im done ya'll.gotta go do my maths!!!

mitch:yo dude.taikkaire of urself yes?love ya!!! chill ya?dunthink so much.yupps.
donn: dun worry k? u'll pull it through.im alwyas here for u.hahas.love ya!!

btw...
[if onLy]
if only u know how i feel
if only i could seal
if only u could see
if only you could read me
if only you felt the same way
if only u went through my everydae
if only there is hope
if only i knew how to cope
if only you knew
how i feel about you
if only my dreams would come true...

this is for *YOU*!!!
dont watse ur time on me ur already the voice inside my head.. =S

fuck u

2004-07-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

FUCK U BITCH!!! i dun wanna GO!!! just LEAVE ME FUCKIN ALONE!!!!!!!

evil laughter

2004-07-28T17:51:00.000+08:00

MuahHahAhaHa!!!! nor's gotta new bag!! hahas.n its BROWN...so happy.yupps!! to day was cool.but mitch was pms-ing badly man.was irritatin her all.i tell u im so gonna die wen she back to her normal self man.oops! anyways..wad else happen...hmmm..oh yes!!! i tell u!!! kunna it one biased bitch i tell u.argh!!! i dint even do anything wrong la.anyhow come pick on me.ugh!! so annoying!! gosh!!! but im cool now.yupps.didnt haf accounts todae!! yay!!! lena siau[is dat how u spell it?] dint come.muahahas!! darn it.
Sam: is it still depressin? im tryin ta b happy!!!can make it not?hahas.aiyah..its over la rights!! shant think bout it no more.hahas.
ok.as u guys can tellnor really has nothing to say.so ya..bye peeps!! oh yes..how can i forget...

MITCH!!!!! go do ur maths!!! n physics!!!!! now!! hahas.no la.jokes.jokes.but must do kaes???yupps..did i u read ur foolscap pad? i left a nice sweet note fer ya!! hahas.

i shall go now.go study.yupps.darn scared man.bye ya'll..love ya!now for me taggies..
thanks ya'll.really sweet of u guys.i'll always rememebr keas?love u peeps!!

i made uo my mind

2004-07-24T21:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm..i've made up my mind..im just gonna let this "thingy" by..aint gonna think bout it.be sad bout it n all..hmm..thanks may.the talk helped.hehs.yupps

...anyhoos..i didnt know u;d now me so well..yet we only met recently.few months back,yet u know me inside out.oh wells..wen im sad..u'd know.how come?im confused..but oh wells..thanks anywyas...glad to haf a fren like u..though u hurt me somtimes..but oh wells.....

enuff bout those peeps..bout my day.went to school fer classes..wah..i tell u kunna damn freakin biased la..ugh..cant take it..annoyin fucked up bitch..ugh...-takes a deep breath- ohwells...aFTER that went ta eat.mee soto.its been long evrsince i had a meaL.hehe.yupps..oh yes....
mitch:::sorry dude..darn angry.left u in canteen.yupps.oops.
other then these..day went fine..ended up cleaning up rm..studied a lil..n did art..nw my hand is so tired from cuttinthe stupid art piece..but i was tempted [to do u know wad] la..but i did it..i dint do it..hhas..im happy..so proud of me self..
oko..im tired.entry doesnt make sense.hahs.
love all of u!!! hahas!!! LOVE~

why?

2004-07-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

today went aiight.not much.didnt feel aiight though.was pms-ing i tink.go ask mitch.she shld know..anyways...dint really "feel in secure" much todae.but u just had to send e msg dat affected me do much...why? why cant u see? i gave u so much clues..n hints..and yet..u fail to see them/....why? seriouisly..why?????

why

2004-07-22T20:07:00.000+08:00

*why is it dat everytime i try to make someone happy..somebady else will get hurt??*
this entry is for smeone..wen dat someone reads it.i hope that someone knows im toking bout someone.

hmm..am i too "soft"? i dunno.ppl say i am.am i forgiving?ppl say i am.why?why is it that i get so affected by smll little things that happpen around me? why? why? tell me.cause its ure seems like no one's getting affected by it.am i just being too sensitive?am i? wellll..u sure aint realising it.wad im goin through just aint visible for u eh? must i tell u how im feeling?cause everyday..u'd call n tell me hows ur dae..but not anymore.u used to tell me everything..but not anymore.all it took was a simple "hi".n its all gone now.how i wish things wld go back the way they were.indirectly..i miss ur presense.u dun even msg no more.u see..its things like this u cant see..n i really dunno wat else to do.in class..i often say.."yeah..im cool.no prob"..but deep down..is a hell load of shit!!bet u didnt know dat did u? well..mayb even afer readin this? u still wldnt realise...n dat i wont b surpirse..after all those things i've done for.after all those trouble i gone through for u ...this is wad i get? never did thought u'd use me to get to someone else.i thought u were different..looks like ur just one of "those" type.i never did expected it..

#the number of cuts on my hand is the number of times u've hurt me.yet u dun realise it.cause y? im not one of em'.why?why?must u be so cold..i really dunnoe wad to do wit u already..ppl r telling me it aint woreth it..its a waste of time.u dun deserve me concern.i shld just forget bout it.but honestly speaking...its not all that simple yes?its quite tough..oh wells...looks like i gotta go through it#

^its just another obstacle of life i've gotta go thru..^

mitch n lydia

2004-07-19T19:27:00.000+08:00

hey all..hmmm....dun really haf much to say la.but just d fact that today went well.accompanied lyds go make her ic thats all.yupps.den wenna take neo print.n smarty pants lydia knocked her head.now she has a blue black.hehes.damn funny la.oh wells..OVER RALL..everything was cool.just dat im damn angry n pissed la..argh..rumours spread damn fuckin fast la..shits...gosh..but u ppl out there...it aint true man..really..gosh...oh wells..everyone is entitled to their own opinion.so think wad u wanna..but iit AINT true...okok..dats all..damn tired la.n im in d studyin mood.yupps...so im off now.. to stiudy.hehes.

u

2004-07-16T23:17:00.000+08:00

*there was a time where my dreams felt so real*
just out if reach but not to far to feeeL
together we finally made em' come true[???]
cause anything was possibLe wen im wit *you*

its been a long time eversince i blogged eh?thanks to this fucked up screwed up dunno wad happen com la shits! its getting disconeccted n all.so annoyin can? argh..!! but thats not my point.oh wells..nothing much happened..ohter then the usual fucked up crap shit dat happens ina fucked up life...other den that i guess things r cooL..except that a mad e a few ppl cry and worry.and one monkey who still doesnt know wad im goin thru..n me getting all so fucked up.mayb ur ryte kyna.mayb i am silly.wait.this is the silly-est thing to do..ever.yupps!!! oh wells....prelims r like so near la.a month from todae can?thats how close it is man..shooots! i shld stop thinkin i stoning n get started man.just like how i was b4 this "thingy" popped up.yupps..guess i'lll move on.yupps..oh my god!! my mom is being stucha *****!!!! argh...so annyin,,,,damn it..

there's this pain that sleeps inside
it sleeps with juts one eye
n awakens the moment u leave
though i try to look away
the pain it still remains
only leavin wen ur next to me.

do u know everytime ur near,everyone seems so far away?
so can u come n make dem disappear
make em dissappear.

so i stand and look around
distracted by the sounds
of everyone n everything i see
and i search thru the faces
without a single trace
of the person.
the person i need

can u make dem disappear?
make em dissappear..

//dissappear-hobastank//

2004-07-13T23:14:00.000+08:00

hundred and fifthteen tears i've made u guys cry..just thought u guys might wanna know.yupps..

dance and drama night

2004-07-11T18:17:00.000+08:00

its over..dance n drama is finally over..nooooo!!! gonna miss it ya'll..sobs..sobs...can we have it one more time? i know la damn tired all.coming home late n stuff..all that practise..getting tired n all..falling asleep durin class..n like how the how world revolves around dance n drama night..but it was all worth it ryte guys..the people enjoyed it..anyways..me afternoon gonna b free from now on..no more ld n stuff..hahask..but im gonna b dead bored la..like something missin.hehesk..yupps..but watever it is..gotta start studyin man..prelims r like so near la..damn scared can..havin PE tmr..so not in the mood can..argh..anyways...i thik dance n drama was great yeah..accordin to my mom..they like the evolution part..but me onthe other hand..LOVES the whole thing!! hahask...from beginnin to end..es[ecially the part where i carried the dining table with tiffany n all..we were eating can..wqatever that was on the table..like chips n stuff..celery sticks all..hahask..damn funny..hahask..anyways..i heard the taped the performance..i must get a copy ya'll.btw..did i mentioned...

CAST:u guys were great man..my mom says u guys r such great actresses..t think so too..

DANCERS:u guys were fantastic..of course my mom said this la..coz i was like back stage n dint get to see anything..hahsk..oh yes hse said u guys r reallly pretty..hahask...

LUBBIE:ur so beuatiful..my mom said dat..hehesk..now make sure u can come out from the room ya..dun let ur head swell to much..hehe.kiddin..jokes..jokes.

overall..my mom loved it la..so ya..dats how i got to go for supper..hahask..n thanks to my sis too..thank ya..now she cant im wasting my time on DnD night..now can she? hahas..

DONN:take a chill pill bae..it'll come to her senses soon,..u cant continue helpin her do stuff n all..she's gotta do it herself somedae ryte?

KYNA:hope u enjoyed ur "raw" prata.. i know i know..old joke but wad e hell...it came to my mind like...just?

hask..happy..

bad luck dae...060704

2004-07-06T22:59:00.000+08:00

oh my god..i declare todae... BAD LUCK DAE!!! -screams-
at first,everythuing was fine...den heard stuff but this someone..btw..last time i HATED this bitch!!! but now.she's not all dat bad la...hmmm..den had LD...stepped on glue...ended hav sticky feet...den went for combine practise wit dance girls...was doin fine..till i went to the toilet..to do u know wad...slipped n hit my leg against the door...den..had a break down..totally unexpected..den went home wit donn..but b4 dat..smarty pants nor...went down the steps..dint bother to see where she was going n FELL!!! now..i haf a srained ankle..-ouch-.but its getting better la..forced myself to work properly..hehes.but it hurts man..argh...hey..to u guys out there..real sorry bout wad happen..really tried my best..i know i shldnt haf given up...but i really tried my best...but guess wad? i aint gonna make u guys angry no more...no more cryin for kyna n ming...no more..nor's gonna try her best..n promise not to do it tmr..yupp!!!i'll give it up soemday...i'll try..i really will..i thought it was just as easy as quitin u now wad....but its darn hard la..argh....u know sometimes..i get so annyoed wit myself..argh..but oh wells... wads done is done ryte? cant turn back time now can we? oh wells... now my leg hurts..argh!!! this is so annoying...

ROACH:hey thanks for todae..i needed dat...thank for being there..went everyone turned their back on mme..yupps..love u loads...
DONN: hey thanks to u too for being so forgiving..u know me so well..i cant even lie to u one bit..n i hate dat..hahash!!!
mitch: chill dude..talk things out..dats all i can say..if u need help...im here ya? but im not so fatastic to like actually do stuff la..but ya...
to all the other ppl hu were there...thanks man...sometimes..it just tale the concern of u guys to make me feel apprieciated..yupps..
right..nor's gettin emotional..AGAIN..
yupps...
sorry ya'll..
see ya tmr...
cant wait for danc en drama night..but at the same time...im scared for u guys too!!!
heehsk!!!
-peace-

thank god

2004-07-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

omg...satyed home todae la..actually mayb not..went ta blade just now..ypps...im so tired now..i fell..=( n hit my ass.. -ouch- but its getting better so ya.hahask...anyways...did my compo b4 dat..hmmm..know wad? i saw dis really nice top fer my nephew.. hahask..wil get it sooon man... no cash now..hehesk..yupps.. hmmm...

DONN: oy my gosh.. thank god we talked..hehesk.. im so happy.yupps..love u loads..

kyna: hey..take a chill pill ya.. hahask..yupps.. love u too..

nto everyone else out there...leave life to the fullest... ur life ur rules.. remember that...

peace ya'll!!

oh my god..ur so annong.. wads the fuckin of askin??? seriously..so can gain persmission ryte? i said no..u still took it.. wads d point??? u came n ask me if i had a problem wi tu..n if i thought of just like the opthers... wel guess i do.. i think ur sach an annyoin busturd..stupid idiot.. i tellu one dae..u'll just find out the real truth but wad i actaually feel bout n ur SHITS!! really. mayb i shld just tell u..if u were to do anything wit dat fon..i SWEAR... i will never ever forgive u in my whole entire life..
i hate u!! i dun trust u!!! i dun love u!!! i DISLIKE YOU!!!!

friends

2004-07-05T00:21:00.000+08:00

frieds...are they hu u really think they r? there are many different types of friends.those hu understands u n accept u as u are..some hu run to u wen other r not arnd.some hu finds u only wen dey need help.ppl u treasure..ppl u care? ppl u love? some hu even betray u in the end...some hu actually forgets u...often taken for granted why? these r d questions a often ask..y is it dat there must b conflicts...how do u know those freind u make r true..u will find out only at the end of the day..some take the blame even if they're not in the wrong.some just push the blame to others..some accuse us for somethin we dint do.me for an example was just playin along.u came to talk to me n ask me stuff..dun expect me to answer dem cause i dont know.y is it dat everytime meet new friends,the old ones feels neglected.yes i admit girls are often jealous.i can truly say im one of em.but wad ryte do u haf to blame it on that.even if u were jealous or watever the reason is..dun make it an excuse.cause it aint gonna work..knowin dat ur d one st fault..dun deny it..tell the truth..if there were ever to haf a misunderstandin...talk things out..trust me things will b ok..only if she/he understands u..i so totally saw this coming..it was just the other i thought we'd never fight..i guess i was wrng..ur angry dat i know..i tried explainin but u wldnt listen..tell me y u've gotta b so cold...to just shut the door at me? y wont u listen to wad i hafta say? so if u dun ever trust me wit ur words i understand...but i wan u to know..i seriously dint mean..i may have betrayed my frens...im really sorry..one way or another i;llmake it up to u..i just made kyna n ming cry 115 tears todae...im really sorry..i'll stop..[somedae]i made roach angry for turnin to someone else den u.im sorry to all of u out there..whom i've hurt...something happen dat made me think..i dun wanna loose frens no more..i had enuff of loosing..mayb dats d reason y i alomost ened up like this.mayb im just too emotinal..i dunno..weelll...i cant jus say sorry cause i know dat by sayin sorry not everything can be solved....n there fore i haf to say..i wld totally understand ....all i can say is that...
some people come into our lives n go quickly.some stay for a while n leave foot prints in our hearts.some leave scars and marks never not possible to dissappear.some leavin memories.good n bad.and we are never the same.

u guys might think im crazy.but im just expresiin my self.yupps...

chijms

2004-07-04T10:38:00.000+08:00

this was like for yesterdae la...but ya..
anyways...went to chijmes yesterdsae...for that arts fest thingy
the weather was damn hot can?
i alomost died!! aaaahhhhh!!!!!
yupps..oh my goD!!!our dance n cherrleaders were awesome man..they great...
n our cheeR was so much better den the other school...wadever thats its called...
sorry ah i forgot..yupps..
headed fer town after dat..wit dance girls..wenta loook fer their stuff
hehesk!! went marche fer dinner. n ya....
after dat...bla..bla..bla...
den went mango...hmmm...yupps...damn fun la..
den ya la...went home after dat..hahask.....
DONN:really sorry man..was seriously meant to b a joke..dun b angry no more ok?
KYNA:hey..had lotsa fun yesterdae..n all...N no..yesterdae wasnt counted as a "date"..was it..hahask...anything la..yupps..

overall...day wasnt that bad...from from happen yesterdae..from wad i saw n heard...n thought n everything...stuff that i had to clear...i can conclude dat....

you can make as many frens as u wan..u can b frens wif the whole world..but at the end of the day...wen u need help,wen ur in trouble...this is den wen u know hu ur true frens r.n if u did something wrng..u'd be responsible for it..or atleast haf the brains to day ur SORRY...

We all need a best friend,a best friend

I remember when we was young
Playing pool,after school,keepin' it cool
People say we were the troublesome two
~~I know the girls liked me & you~~
I can never forge t the times you've covered my back
You helped me out and cut me some slack
There was nothin' you'd never do
It's all about me and you.

You're my brother, you're my sister
We'll stick together
No matter what, no matter what

Best friend, never gonna let you down
Best friend, always gonna be around
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you
We all need a best friend, to understand
a best friend, to take your hand
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you

You remember the days when we would
Kick back, lay back
We'd be chillin' ~~with the ladies~~
These times were the greatest
so don't worry about a thing my friend
'Cos you can count on me, thick or thin
Cos I'll be there right 'till the end, 'till the end

You're my brother, you're my sister
We'll stick together
No matter what, no matter what

Best friend, never gonna let you down
Best friend, always gonna be around
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you
We all need a best friend, to understand
a best friend, to take your hand
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you

Come on, come on best friend
Come on, come on best friend
Come on, come on best friend
Come on, come on best friend

You're my brother, you're my sister
We'll stick together
No matter what, no matter what
You're my brother, you're my sister
We'll stick together
No matter what, no matter what

Best friend, never gonna let you down
Best friend, always gonna be around
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you
We all need a best friend, to understand
a best friend, to take your hand
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you

Best friend, never gonna let you down
Best friend, always gonna be around
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you
We all need a best friend, to understand
a best friend, to take your hand
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you

Best friend, never gonna let you down
Best friend, always gonna be around
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you
We all need a best friend, to understand
a best friend, to take your hand
You know, whatever life puts you through
I'll be there for you

best frens...

wondering

2004-07-02T23:05:00.000+08:00

have u ever wondered y things turn out the way dey did?
have u ever wondered y stuff has to happen to u?
was there ever once where u are so over this person then wif a blink of an eye,all the memories just start to flow back?n everything dat u went thru just comes back?
y is it dat everytime i prepare something it always doesnt turn out ryte?
y? y? y? tell me i neeed to know...i was find a few daes ago...wen i thought i was over *YOU*i felt nothing beinng arnd *you*..
but all of the sudden in the train,wen i got of the phone..everything just came back..why?
why is it dat everything comes back wen i least expects it to?
why?
why must this happen?
was there once wen u were preparing ur "inner" self for an occasion where u'll haf to face...
i need serious help..really guys..
those ppl out there who had crushes n everythin but in the end u had to forget ur crush cause u know dat by the end of the day...they can never be "you n me"....
please tag me bout wad i can do. cause i really thought i was over *YOU*..
den y must all this come back?
m not mentionin names..aint gonna point fingers...aint blamin *YOU* either..
that wld just b too shallow...
just hope dat one day...wen *YOU* finally realise its *YOU* im toking bout..den mayb *YOU* would o something bout it...
but whatever it is guys......whatever dat happens to u in life u r to blame...ur to get the credit..coz ur life ur rules.do whatever dat is ryte..follow ur heart...

ok....i think my entry really dint make sense...but who cares...
i need help...
badly...
please...

nora[cu]: read ur entry.as in like just.err..basically thats wad im goin thru la..thought i was d only one.but i guess not.well..we prolly hafta go thru this together? yupps..it was pretty hard for me to see "em" fightinn...him creating all the problems..n me actually seeing my brother leave home on my bdae not knowing dat was d lst time he's ever comin back.but i guess there's always few ways to look at situations..[like u said to me].i duess its something we gotta go thru?i dun like seein this happening..dats the reason im never home.cause i dun wanna see alll this.i hate home..but wad can i do..this is where i live.where i survive.my shelter.where im actually writing this entry.where all good n BAD happen...i haf to stay here...there really isnt much we can bout these stuff...i got affected by it dat it affected my grades...pls..dun let dat happen to u? u'll regret..trust me u will..coz i did...whatever it is...stay strong inside...never give in to sorrow.cause dats just bad....together..we'll make it...i louve u loads....

youth day

2004-07-02T17:51:00.000+08:00

had youth dae celebration todae...so much for a celebration.we cant even use home clothes.!!! argh!! anyways...learnt kinda alot todae la..durin g mass i mean.as in i was really listening to wad father was saying n ya..there's mamny thing dat i werent clear bout la..i kinda like found my answers..yupps...father said.."no matter how much the teacher screams n shouts ast ur face..deeply she/he loves u dearly.." n im like "ya sure..right.." thats so not true. singapore is a multi racial country.but their boound to b some racist people arnd...but y? u know if there were ever to b a race riot(touch wood)..i'lll die man..cause majority of my frens arent my race.im not gettin personal here.but im just writin my thoughts out.but can u imagine if everyone had the same mentality(however u spell dat)?wads gonna happen man.teachers often tell us not to b racist.but them themselves r being racist.if u dun like dat particular student,so be it.not say d student wil get hurt or anything.but wad if all d teachers were racist..we might as well not be a multi racial country..oh wells...everyone has their own opinion..well,this is mine..yupps!!! just hope things wld get better..really...yupps!!!hmmmm....many people change.some change for the better but others not.wen u do something wrong u say sorry ryte? but y is it dat even after i say sorry,that person still treats me differently? y? u say i didnt accept u as u r..but now i haf..i feel a "gap" between us..if u guys get wad i mean.u said u wont let anything affect the frenship..well guess wad? it just did..cause many some ppl say u n her are just the same...wad i think is u guys r totally different...atleats she doesnt forget frens who were once/is close to her.unlike u...u dun even remember me..

what ever it is..i dun really care.wads d point of asking forgiveness wen nothings gonna change.all i can say is dat...i've wasted my time on u...i shldnt even haf spent my thoughts on u...if ur really sorry...do me a favour...u doin this to me has hurt me much...as a fren...i advice u not to repeat ur mistakes..

tired

2004-07-01T22:20:00.001+08:00

im so tired..argh..damn tired la..hmmmm...had like two straight periods of maths...bloody hell..she's damn biased la..argh..biased bitch!!!den had geography..i tel u this is another one..her notes so doesnt make sense la..gosh...its so not related to wad she's askin bout..argh...den had accounts..klah not so bad la.. only had one period yupps..n she was kinmda in a good mood so ya..anywas..had aLd after dat...damn fun la...hehesk..had combine woth dance.so ya...i got to see my favourite dance ever...heehsk...the birthday party dance..way the go guys!! ehesk...i like d others too..hahask...yupps..."my little girl's getting married......." and bla..bla..bla.. hahask....i like..hahask... okla...anyways....im damn tired yupps...

oh my god...ur so annoying la...no means no la...wats d point of asking wen in the end ur gonna do things ur way...seriously man...u dun need ppl like u in my life...n ya i haf big issues wit u? u've ogt F*ckin problem wit dat is it? like watever la.. argh..so annoyin..i tell u one dae ur seriously gonna oay back fer all this things u did man...god...i hate YOU...i really really hate you!!!!argh....
-btw this is to me bro-

school

2004-06-30T19:28:00.000+08:00

hey all..hmmm...hows school been?? great ryte!!! hahask..my ass man..dun stress ppl...know o levels and all like damn near la..but cool it yeah? hmmm...dance n drama night's coming ya'll..those who dun haf ticket beer hurry up ya..only last three rows left..(i think) hehesk..anyways...must come kaes...u wont regret it..hehesk..yupps...overall,past feew daes of skool aint dat bad la...still can survive..but gotta catch come loads man..im damn scared..anyways..ya..taikkaire all...
btw....

IM OVER *YOU*!!!!
i really am...i haf suceeded!! yay!!! so proud of me self..yupps!!!
hahask...but really..do u know how hard it is to forget *YOU*???
hahahsk..no regrets at all..now i can b around *YOU n wont even feel all so nevous n stuff...n at first i thought fogetting *YOU* wld mean not being able to even be friends wit ya.but i guess i was wrong..muahahahah!!!! i m now ur fren..hahask...
sorry guys..nor's gone crazy..yupps...wats new...nor's always crazy..hahashk...muahahahaha...anyways...feel like sayin it again...
IM OVER *YOU*!!!!!!!!

IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*
IM OVER *YOU*

muahahahahahah!!! im over *YOU*..hahask...i succeded..yays!!lolx!

oh yes..one more thing...
MY LIFE MY RULES..
no one aint got the right to tell me wad to do...
no one can tell me who i can n cannot be frens with...
so just lay back bitch!!! leave me alone...
she's not as bad as u think she is...
so get lost...
god..this is so irritating..
oh n as for u? wads ur f**kin problem? y u pissed at me? i was just askin..bitch!!!
btw..i dun need frens like u in my LIFE!!!
dis is so annoying..god...help me!!

long lost soul a.k.a my sec bro

2004-06-26T23:17:00.005+08:00

hmmm..just came back from like dinner cum supper wit ma bro n cuzieS...he is so not punctual la...waited like for 1/2 an hour can...but who cares t was all worth it..hehesk!!! yupps..i almost burst int tears la wen i saw him..it was a very emotional thing fer me.cmon man...imagine seeing ur brother whom u were once close to like after a year? damn sad la.. anyhow..hmmm..missed him so much..but its all ok now..got to see him n all..so ya..hahask!!got a pic of him too!!! if only u guys knew how im feelin ryte now..mayb u guys do...hahask!!!okok...im cool...im cool..ok...enuff bout him...we talked n all..den slacked..no worries guys...i dint do anything..if u know wad i mean..hahask!!! ryte noraa n roach?hehesk..okla...hmmmm....wrote something fer my ex...
its not a poem or anything..its just bout how im feelin..yupps!!

[GONE]

NOw ur gone.dun even know if ur coming back.all i have left are memories of u i'll forever keep.as i sat in my room thinking,why u had to go.left me facing this world of pain.all by myself.all alone.not knowing the outcome,i live each day a new.wish u were here with me right now to clear my thoughts away.someone i can count on.no matter how many people come walking into my life leaving marks,these are nothing compared to yours.you left scars on my heart where love is found.how i wish i knew where u are.but the only thing that i know is that ur GONE.n ur ~~not~~ coming back...?

hey..this goes to you..where ever u are.i hope somehow u'll find ot bout this..i miss you..i really do..

khalid..

2004-06-26T17:32:00.000+08:00

hmmmm..heard this song like just a few minutes ago.dint even know i had this song in ma cd.hahask!!! blur me..anyways..it remind me of HIM.yupps...HIM...mr K..yer baby dern..HIM..

this is how d song goes ya'll..
dunno d whole song tho.dunno title also.ahhaask!!!
not original cd ler..yupps..

I cant stop thinkin about wad we once had together
And all the reason is dat our love was meant forever
But ~~now~~ my life is shared with someone other than you
MY LIFE IS WORHTLESS IF THERE IS NO YOU

*Everydae alone,i think of you
You're not my man,im with somebody else
ALl i want to know is can i be with you tonight..
Because baby..
I never stop loving your kissin n huggin
I still think of US wen im all alone...
Its hard for me to forget wishin ur the one that im with
Now im so FULL of REGRETS
WHat can i do..when i think of you...*

DO you remember the day you first said "i love you"?
I can remember cause you pull al my dreams to come true..
Now i dont know why im ~~with~~ him when love's aint true
But now i do know why,im always wishin it was you

*Everydae alone i think of u
You're not my man,im with somebody else
All i want to know is can i be with you tonight..
Because baby...
i never stop lovin ur kissin and huggin
i still of us when im all alone...
Its hard for me to forget
Wishin ur d one that im with
now im so full of REGRETS...
What do i do when i think of you...*

hopin..hopin..prayin..prayin...,you understand now i love you
im tryin trying and waiting to tell how much i love you
boy..i know..i know...i never said enuff i love you
BUT NOW I KNOW MY HEART WILL LOVE NO ONE ELSE BUT YOU,BABY...

*(x3)

carniwal...

2004-06-26T15:37:00.000+08:00

hey..hey..hey...hmmm...damn tired can..slept at like five..n woke up at like 7??? god...help my cuz with her game stall at her family day dunno wad...
hmmmm...reminds me of carnival..hahask!!! how fun!!! so loads of ppl too...n some which actually remind me of *YOU*.. argh...anyways...saw dis boy..who looks so much like my ex..hahahsk!!! oh wells...gonna meet ma bro fer dinner todae man..how exciting..if u guys dint understand by "long lost brother"..he's actually me bro which kinda ran away n lke ya..dtas all u gus gotta know..those who knows d whole story wld know how excited i am fer tonight...hahahsk!!! yupps...like at seven plus eight la..but nor is like so panickin coz she doesnt know wad to where..screams....hahask!!!!

screwed

2004-06-26T01:57:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh!!!! im so screwed...damns...schools gonna reopen soon n i haven done a single shit!!! just like wad? section A of maths? hahask!!! not done ss.not done bio.not done ART!!! shits man..n gonna see zailee like everydae can...for DnD ler..shits..damn...n i lost all my english stuff.!!! n d thing is armstrong's in Ld...how great...shits man...basically..i've not done a single shit..just bumming arnd...doin nothing..goin to school fer like LD.. thinkin of *YOU*...[duh!!!] damnz...im screwed..aaaaaahhhhhhh......
f**k man...

bag!!

2004-06-25T22:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm...went shopping todae...hehesk..obviously,mom paid fer everything..antways...i got my BAG.!!!! yippee!!! hahask...den bought two shirts..hahas..im so happy!!! but as usual...happiness dint lass long...only chiechie[roach] knows bout it..
hahask!!!! anyways....i just discovered a new PIMPLE...-screams- shits man...n its on ma fore head!!! can u imagine DAT!!! n im goin out tmr can!!! argh..so annoyin...darn it!!! argh....n guess wad? im meeting my lng lost brother tmr!!! n must look good man..shits...n he loves to irritate me...aspecially wen i haf a pimple...what shalli do??!!! what shall i do!!!?? im panickin...HELP!!!!!!

sniff

2004-06-25T13:08:00.000+08:00

haiz...im home...like aftere so many daes of goin to school..hehesk! yupps.. gonna stay home like fer d next few daes tilll school reopens..oh wells.. was suppose ta go out todae..but..smart me woke up late so like ya..hahask!!! damn tired..woke u at the beep of ma fon.hahask!!!anyways...im STILL gonna go out..cant stay home la..know wad? the reason y my mom doesnt want me ta go out d next few daes is bcoz she wants ta spent "quality" time with me...hw fun! -rolls eyes- actully its not all dat bad..she just said we're goin shopping!!! haahsk...shop.shop..shop...shop till i drop!!! ahahahsk!!! lolz!!! sorry ah..nor abit insane.hahask! im goin shooping..im goin shopping..hahask!!!gonna get ma bag too!!! yay!!! n i dun haf to pay a single cent.hahask!!! life's good!!! haahsk!! ok..ok.ok...nor,calm urself down.. i've got surprise fer someone..hahask!!! n know its not *YOU*..its someone else.hahask!!! aint gonna tell anyne..yupps! haask!!! ok la..me dunno wat else to write.hahask...gots ta get ready soon though..goin out wad..haahsk!!!

kyna:hmmm...cant go out la babe.sat alrights? like after rehearsal? hahask!!! yupps...see ya arnd!! love u to bits me lil grand.d.. :p

everybodys changing-keane

2004-06-25T02:42:00.000+08:00

this song is to all u ppl out there whose readin my blog.yupps..
especially to *YOU*
Everybodys Changing - keane-

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can

You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same

(instrumental)

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
'cos everybody's changing
And I don't feel right
So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same

(solo)

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing and I don't feel the same

w/o you...clay aiken n kimberly lock

2004-06-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

nothing special..just love this song..
-screams-
hahask!!!
Without YOU by Clay Aiken n Kimberly Locke

(CLAY)
Never even thought to cry
When I heard you say good-bye
Never said where you were going
There's no laughter in the air
Only silence everywhere

And so much left unspoken
Since you've been gone
I haven't been the same
I wish that I could see
Who's to blame

Chorus :
Without you, where do I belong?
Without you, how can I go on?
No love but yours will ever do
Tell me how am I supposed to live my life without you?

(KIM)
Was I lost in you and me
To the point I couldn't see
That what we had was dying
Now it's all that I can do

(TOGETHER) To see photographs of you
And stop myself from cryin'
I should learn to live without your love
(TOGETHER) Got so many memories, but it's not enough

(TOGETHER) Repeat Chorus

(CLAY) I feel helpless and oh so all alone
(KIM)Ooh Like I've never felt before
(KIM) You made me feel alive (ooooh in background sung by clay)
(TOGETHER) But I don't remember what it's like anymore

Repeat Chorus

shock!!!

2004-06-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

hmm..lets see wad did i do todae???? [thinkin]
oh yes...i went ta geylang with roach today ta get cloth fer the sofa..ahashkk..yupps...den went ta schl..yupp..to put the cloth all den waited fer donn too..hahask..went lunch wit her..but b4 dat..while waiting..i was playing wit mrs zailee's son,ian.he's so cute.ahahsk...deni had to go..did i tell u guys dat nor cant balance fer nuts?like in the bus just now,if it werent for roach..everyone wld hav seen "flying skittles"..hahsk..damn funny la..as usual..bimbo nor sreamed "eww" in front of delifrance n everyone in delifrance was looking at me can....damn malu la..hahsk...after dat..errrs...oh ya..wen bishan..ta walk arnd all..i saw this really nice top n berms..like fer ma lil neph i love so much...he'll look so good in it..hehesk!!! anywayys..i think dats all..or atleast dats all dat i can remember..hahask...oh ya..n again..i saw dis girl in d bus looks like kyna can?but den AGAIN..iwas wrong..hahask..i think something wit my eye sight can..ok..yupps..hahahask..
damn funny..shits..dey playing "The REASON" on radio..darnz..n i thought i cld get thru one day not feeling all depressed n sad bout *YOU*..oh wells..i hafta get over *YOU*..so might as well get used ta watever dat reminds me of *YOU* n stay cool bout it..yuppss...

bimbo:we shld really go out one day..not as in lunch n stuff..as in like go out out..

mitch:no worries dude..u can do it..one month no bball is like u not s**ing ___..tough la..but im sre u can do it..right?wait,mayb its worse.hahsk..bball is ur life..hahasl..oh wells...shits...means i aint got nobody ta play bball wit..damnz..anyways...yupps...i'll "push" u anrd school..if u get wad i mean..hahask..btw..the shirt n berms we saw..its still there..mayb i shld b a kind fren n get it? nah..nor's not dat nice..ahahsk..kiddin...

roach:though i dun say it often..though ur not the one i turn to always..thought ur not the one i call everynight...though ur not the one i talk bout..ur always wif me..in my heart..so watever it is..i care aiiight? even if i were to drift apart..i wont be far...

noraa:hey...have fun at camp..i'll miss ya..yupps..hahask!!!

invisible

2004-06-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

What are you doing tonight
I wish I could be a fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Still in your dreams
Why can't I bring you into my life
What would it take to make to see that I'm alive

Chorus
Is I was invisible
Then I could just watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait...I already am)

I saw your face in the crowd
I called your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracking your steps
Each move you make
Wish I could be what goes through your mind
Wish you could touch me with the colors of your life

Chorus
If I was invisible
Then I could watch you in your room
If I was invisible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I can just tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
(Wait...I already am)

I reach out
But you don't even see me
Even when I'm screaming
Baby, you don't hear me
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through...

im over you

2004-06-23T20:37:00.000+08:00

i wrote it like last night la..stupoid laptop screwed up.as usual..argh

im OVER *YOU* [how i wish its true]

me just came back from malaysia not too long ago.dint see *YOU* n everything..so i guess im OVER *YOU*??? wats d point of feeling this way knowing there can never be a *YOU* n me??i've made up my mind.everything's gonna change now.i DISLIKE *YOU*.not HATE *YOU*.u know..usually ppl end up lovin the person dey hate most..so ya..n dislike will mean not liking dat particular person..right mitch? so ya.. i DISLIKE *YOU*.i will go on wit my life..i'll HAVE to.im gonna tell myself.the world does not REVOLVE ARND *YOU*.lookin back at the memories of *YOU* n me i've kept....

-how i wish it cld all happen once more.
-how i wish i cld b arnd *YOU* n not get all nervous.
-how i wish i cld have things back the way they were.
-how i wish these feelings never exist.
-how i wish i saw this coming n stoped it.

But now i know..all these aint gonna come true unless i forget *YOU*.which is so TOUGH to do.buti can do it.if there's a WILL,there's a WAY..right guys? i'll try my best.its gonnan b hard.No one said forgetting someone special wld b EASY..

-everytime i see *YOU*,i'll pretend *YOU* are not there.
-i wont have any eye contact with *YOU*.
-i wont start a conversation unless *YOU* started it.
-i wont even look at *YOU* like i always do.
-i wont msg.
-i wont call.
-i wont look for *YOU* wen i sense *YOU* arnd.
-i wont do anything so as i wld see *YOU*.
-i wont "chat" with *YOU*.
-i will distant myself.
-i will walk away.
-*YOU* will just b another face in the crowd.
-*YOU* will b anothere obstacle of life i gotta go thru.
-nothing in my life will b about *YOU* anymore.
-*YOU* ARE THE LAST THING ON MY MIND..

haiz..im gonna forget *YOU*.it takes TIME.But i'll pull it through.yuppS!!!

Sitting by the shore
Staring at the sky
Wishing *YOU* were near
Hopin *YOU* werent far
Hoping *YOU* were close to me
Knowin *YOU* are not
i wish i hadnt LOVE *YOU*
i wish i had NOT

[mitch]

boredom

2004-06-22T02:29:00.000+08:00

sigh...sigh...sigh... im so bored..cant sleep..there's nothing on tv..haiz...no point me eatin panadol man..aint gettin better.just givin me headaches..argh..i hate being sick..i cant go anywhere..feeling so shitty..argh...oh wells..saw it comin but didnt bother...well i gues dis is wad i get in return..[sniff]
almost everyones gettin sick..kyna.,debo n like almost all LD ppl..[if im not wrong]..n ME!!!! yupps..so annoying.. anyways..u guys must get well soon kaex?hols alomost up..wldnt wan ya'll ta hav a bad first day wen schl re opens...yups..i misssed u guys loads man..cant wait ta get back ta spore..cant wait ta go back schl on wednesdae...hahahsk..lolx...im bored..but i've got nothing ta say...prolly gonna force ma self ta sleep or somethin..or go play tony hawk..hahask..come to tink of it..i never get bored of it eh? whole life also play tony hawk..hahask..yupps...
[nor's dyin of boredom]

sniff..sniff..

2004-06-22T01:25:00.000+08:00

[sniffs]darn..im so sick ler..was suppose ta go shop todae but ended up stayin in d hotel d WHOLE day...:( yupps... damn boring can? slept like d whole day n now im wide awake..hehesk!! yupps...anyways...my mom bought me stuff tho..she bought me two pants n slippers..heehsk..darn nice..my pants is khaki color n ma slippers is BROWN...yupps..hahask..so nice...cant wait ta wear dem..dint quite realiase dai but my mom"s taste on clothes...kinda ok la..can tahan..hehesk..but i really wanna go shopping...[sigh]..comin back tmr..wldnt haf time ta shop..but dunno if i can make it fer DnD practise..[coughs] sigh...really wanna c bimbo dance la.. dem nice can..hahask...[sticks out toungue]..guess wad?n AGAIN,i heard "The reason".argh...so annoying..reminded me of *YOU*..yupps...heard my immortal..hehesk.reminded me of ma dude..hahask...bet ya missed me ryte?hahsk...kidding...

roaCHIE: know wad? just now was watchin show..den had dis part where reminded me of u..coz..there was like dis two close frens..known each other fwer quite some time la..den one of dem wen dunno where den changed and all..but after a few years..dey kinda coincidently were project partners..n dey had fun all la...but the moment they were done wit d project,dey like kinda drfifted apart..so like ya la..some parts reminded me of ya..yupps...hahask...miss ya loads man...really do...wat time times LD anyways..if i can make it,i'll pop by or something..yupps... :)

till den guys...nor's MISSING u guys LOADS...
muacks..love ya'll
-peace out-

ouch

2004-06-20T23:53:00.000+08:00

hey gRAND d noraa..its comfirmed man,,me coming back on tuesdae..:(
dats means i'll see ya on wednesdae..
damn..it feels so long...
anyways..my tummy hurts rite...not bcoz i didnt eat dinner[tho i didnt],its just dat my tummy'a been real pain fer like d past few daes man...
wait no..its eversince i ate the food at d hotel..damnz..anyways..i missed u guys man...shits...wad m i to do w/o ma grandchildren?[refering 2 noraa]...thanks fer doin ma blog n stuff man...really apprieciate it...i neeed ta talk to u urgently man...its important....its bout -u know who-...:'(
yupps...im so sad...know wad d tv in ma room has mtv...dat means i heard 'the reason'...how bad can it b rite?and obviously it reminded me of *YOU*...was enjoyin myself all la..playin wit ma nephew all..den dey just had to play d song...argh...spoil ma day only..but oh wells...i hjave to get used 2 it ryte?yupps...-smiles-
den wen i was at d theme park...dey played..toxic..hahask...reminded me of the dancers...hahsk...yupps...

roachie: we need ta talk man..real important..shits...i miss u so much..hehesk..yupps..bet u've chocking alot lately rite?been talkin alot bout u lately..wit ma mom n all..hehesk...yupps...wit my MOM..surprising ryte?hmm...yupps...hahahsk...must talk..hehesk..ok?love ya tons... :p huggs n kisses..-muacks- im falling sick...help..[sniff sniff]

noraa:we need ta talk too manz...bout u know...miss *you* alot man..serious...how do u do it man...facing ______ all..teach me man...gotta learn frm d pro..hahsk..yupps..okok...im tokin nonsense..dats bcoz..im bored..ouh..i know wad to do..i shall go play ps..damn long can..now must start frm scratch..shits..all the way frm level one..damn...oh no..i forgot 2 buy memory card..shits..F**K..oh wells...love ya to bits..!!!

ma trip

2004-06-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

hey peeps out there..haf time ta waste b4 goin fer dinner...guess wad? smarty pants nor...dint bring her phone..damn smart ryte? -rolls eyes- so u grand children of mine..if ya need ta contact me..call my mom aiight? yupps..u do know d number rytes?hmm...i dun feel like eating..oh wells..mayb i wont go..den stay in hotel..yupps..anyways...the hotel damn cool la...its like on water..quite scary tho...can u imagine if something were to happpen den i'd fall in the water...eeeekkkksss!!!! scary mans..anyways...went ta port dickson la..so not much shoppin done..den went ta KL..went ta time square..this shoppin centre has an indoor theme park..so instead of goin shopping,i went ta da theme park..ehehsk...damn fun la...but having headache now...hahsk..so noraa n kyna n all...wen i get back empty handed[which i hope not],u guys shld now y eh?
hehesk!! yupps..
anyways..guess wads my room number? 715!!! hehesk...noraa...fifthteen nora..hehesk...
ok la..got nothing to say liao...just dat i missed u guys man..really do..n my mom is thinkin of extending it till tuesdae..haiz..wont be seein u guys on tuesdae man...btw..is there LD on tuesdae? wednesdae? heehsk..

i miss YOU!!i really dooo...i miss YOU..

i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU
i miss YOU..im missing YOU

i MISS you peeps...!!! :(
i dun wanna extend!!!
i wanna go back..
-screams-

roachie:err..i wanted 2 ask u something,but i forgot.so forget it manz..hehesk!!

2004-06-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

Shaun,
-argh-
-damn anrgy la...-
ur such an irrtant!!! F**king basturd..forever findin ways to irritate me!! i hate you!!! ya!! mark my words..i HATE u!!! i HATE u so much dat i dun even love u anymore...F**k care bout the things u've done..it means nothing to me now..all u do is bring shame to the family...stupid basturd..wait ur not even fit to b called basturd..bitch shld b it..how did i end up having such a F**ked brother like you.mayb u got swithed at birth..[how i wish]..all u do is hurt MOM...wait...why do i care so much bout MOM????!!!! all she cares about is you...everything u do is rite..she supposrts u all d way no matter wat..its always bout u..alwqys have been...always will..everytime some F*ked up shit dat goes wrng at home..she bames me for it..even if ur the one at fault..!!Biased bitch..how i wish i had the "old" MOM back..the one hu is understanding..the one hu doesnt assume things...the one hu finds out bout the problem b4 getting mad..d one hu is there for me always..the one i can count on..the happy go lucky MOM which i once had..
eversince u created a whole load of F**Ked up shits..MOM has never been d same..bcoz ofu the family's breaking up..becoz of u..MOM n DAD r fighting..bcoz of u..KAKAK n ABG r fightin..becoz of u everything's goin wrng and the only reason y he doesnt wanna ome is you!!!..cant u see dat u r the cause of everything...u just had to do wad u did right???n annoy the hell out of everyone..till now..u dun even realise dat everyone is angry wit you..?are u so blind?well...mayb its bcoz ur too dumb..ya..thtas d reason y..ur DUMB..!!! hear me?? DUMB ASS...
well guess wad? i cant take it anymore..i get so irritated everytime i see you..u make me so angry dat i dun care if ur never coming back..i dun wish to see u again..ever!!!get lost..get lost now!!! get out of my F**King life..stupid basturd..i even gave u a chance to change for the better,but no..u didnt change at all..u stuck wit ur F**kin attitude which sux so badly..!!! MOM alwaes say.."give him a chance.he'll change.give him time"ya sure...very little does she know bout her sweet,innocent son...well guess wad?even if u needed time..its already been six months..F**kin hell change man..seriously...finally...me not being in singapore doesnt give u the right to enter my room...and search for go knows wad..its like so out of bound..btw..keep this in mind..im a teenager n ur a fucking 25 yr old male..so u dun just come into my room w/o knocking n stuff...like hello...PRIVACY is the word..ever heard bout it? well search the fucking dictionary...thta is u even know wad dat is..den mayb u cld ask arnd n show how dumb u really are..moron..wait..u've been doin dat like for ur entire life..so y bother..trying..u are sucha pest..u DISGUST me u know dat?i HATE yOU...

phew..wad a relieve..was damn angry can..anyways..had LD today for like two hours..den wen town wit roach,noraa,debo n andrea.hhehesk..met kyna too..help me wish ur mom happy bdae ok??:)..hehesk..n bumped into sam n roxy..hahas...i finally bought my adidas perfume la...i tot it was like 24 bucks..den it turned out to b like only 19.50..there was even a 20% pecent discount..so like in the end only paid..15 plus..hahahsk!!! anyways..do u peeeps out there know dat dark brown n orange is a very nice color combination?hahsk!!!yupps... roachie..dun b sad kaes...im always here for u..wel mayb not on sat n sun n mon..hahask..u can always cll me at [94876152] oke!?hahask!!! n yes noraa...i;ll try to get something..dat is if i see anyting nice...hehehsk!!! oops:)kyna...err..i'll try..hehesk..me aint no expert man..hahsk!!! im like goin ta malaysia for three daes..gonna miss u guys man..my grand children..my bimbo..my lublub...my aunt..my cuzieS..and everyone else..especially *YOU*...dun miss me keax!!!??? hehehsk...
love ALL to bits man..yupps..-maucks-
alrights..this is all fer now..tilll i get back....
-peace out ya'll-
:p

It wasnt a BAD dae after all

2004-06-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm...we to nora's todae...so she'd help me wit ma blog..its doin ok..just dat no song is being played..argh...but had fun..nora n i cldnt stop laughing la..like as though we got posssesed(is dat how u spell it?)hehehesk...den chat wit roach n alts n all..this roach..-sigh-...so sad all the time..hehesk..must b happy kaes..?im here!!!:) n i love to bits...remember that aiight? laughing is the best medicine ever..serious..but once again YOU didnt slip off my mind..YOU were there always..dunno y also...even wen im busy doin something..im sure to think of YOU...but oh wells...wats da point..wen i know nothing can happen..so ya...gotta forget YOU man...argh...

Do YOU ever loved someone
and now he didnt care
did YOU ever look in ~~his~~ eyes
and wish YOU were there
do YOU ever see ~~him~~ dance
when the lights where low
do YOU ever whisper
"god i love ~~him~~"
and wouldn't let ~~him~~ know
if YOU ever fall inlove my friend
YOU find it doesnt pay
althought it causes heartache
it happens everyday

YOU wonder where he is at night
and if he thinks of YOU
one moment YOU'll be happy
the next YOU'll be blue
LOVE is fine but hurts so much
the price YOU pay is high
so i say when YOU fall inlove
YOU'll be hurt before YOU're through
believe me my friend
i ought to know
cause i fell inlove with YOU

why?????

2004-06-17T11:03:00.000+08:00

last nite i heard a song wish reminded me of YOU.i thought i was over YOU but im not sure about it now.dunno why also..everytime i dun see YOU,i think im over YOU..but wen i see YOU..im falling head over heels for YOU..why is it so hard for me ta forget YOU? no one has affected my life like u did...someone please help...how do u get over someone? seriously..cause i need to know..its so annoying and painful to be wit YOU..knowing a fact that i cant have YOU...seeing YOU makes me happy..n at the same time sad...the more i hate YOU..d more i love YOU....like ppl say..d one you hate..is d one u love most..wad m i to do...i wanna forget YOU.. ireally dun wanna think about YOU...but its like YOU are everywhere to me la...anywhere i go...YOU will b there...anything i do..wld b for YOU..argh.. this is so annoying...i 'hate' you..i really do...

there's no way that we could ever be
not when it happens to be with YOU n me
you only think of me when they're not around
its times like this i feel like a clown
i know that if YOU had to choose
i'd surely loose
YOU call me to talk when YOU feel alone
but hang up the moment one of them is on the phone
destressed i resign to sigh
im just the backup vocals
for the leading ppl of UR song...

2004-06-16T23:38:00.000+08:00

wassup ya'll..nor here.me just got a blog..so like yeah...took ages la..blame this f**ked up com la..always jam..anyways..so like ya...hehe..link me ya'll..hahask..nora n roach..i did it!! - i think- hahask..i did it... im over *YOU*.. ;)

dontwannathinkaboutyou

NORA INVADES!

argh~! i cant post!! i can only write titLe.how interstin..stupid fucked up com!! argh~!

jhvdjb

*[you]*

world sucks

angry

-fun day-

study day!

fuck u

art.

*[you]*

cLutz

beauty

borinng

[you]

*someone*

quiet u!!!

fuck u

evil laughter

i made uo my mind

why?

why

mitch n lydia

u

dance and drama night

bad luck dae...060704

thank god

friends

chijms

wondering

youth day

tired

school

long lost soul a.k.a my sec bro

khalid..

carniwal...

screwed

bag!!

sniff

everybodys changing-keane

w/o you...clay aiken n kimberly lock

shock!!!

invisible

im over you

boredom

sniff..sniff..

ouch

ma trip

It wasnt a BAD dae after all

why?????

[you]

[you]

someone